So true ~>
Our boys are not mad at each other, but we all know that they're not as they
were before. They don't "play" between them as much as they used to, they rarely
do interviews or go to award shows, you rarely see them arriving a place
together [like, at airports], they're rarely together on their days off or
holidays, they rarely (just to not say never) go to bars or pubs
together.
Yes, they're still friends. Yes, they care about each other [we
noticed that when Niall got hurt]. But it's not the same. I know they grew up.
Even tho they said they'd be forever young, we all know that's
impossible.
But it still hurt.
I've seen pictures. I've seen gifs. And
I've seen videos. But I've never seen them interacting in front of me. So I'm
really looking forward to the concert [(I'm not trying to make you jealous or
even sound bitchy)] to see how they really get along. It really hurts to be
here, behind a fucking computer, trying to know about them, caring about them,
everything. You may think that I know everything about them, but I don't. No one
does. Yes, I have informations and I have a lot of people to keep me updated.
But what I know is nothing.
What does Zayn feel when people call him a
terrorist? What does Liam think when people bully him (yes bc that still happens
thru the internet) or when people call him fat? What does Niall think when
people say he can't sing? What do Louis and Harry feel when people talk
(whatever it is) about "larry"? What does Harry feel when people talk about the
fact that he's single or call him a womeniser? Or what he feels when he's having
breakfast alone in a caffe, bored, looking at his phone? Or what he feels when
he goes to a pub alone? What does Louis feel when poeple say he shouldn't be in
the band? When people say he ruins the songs?
What do they feel when people
call them gays?
I don't know. No one does.
It hurts. It really does to me. And I don't
even know why I'm saying all this, I'm sorry, but what I'm trying to say is: no
one cares about that. No one cares about what they feel. This way, a band can't
last forever. :(
